| Firstly, I would like to say hello to everyone and to get the evident holiday and New year greetings out of the way. This past year was full good times, hard times, tough times, and God. To most who continue to believe they know me, haha like most... this year was a "You think you know, but you don't know jack" kind of years. A lot of things that I believed to have figured out or some what planned I found presently under review. Like for instance I thought I would be a chef and own a restaurant one day, but ended up not enjoying the stress, the pay, the labour, the hours, the over all life of it all. Now, God gave me the opportunity to realize once again that a career working with youth or those with special needs is where my heart is meant to stay. Truthfully, I still enjoy the art of cooking and I still hold passion for it, but not as a career. Do I regret any of this? LOL ...no. For I have learned that the journey in anything holds more value then the destination. This year was also a year of continual travel. Unknown to most I traveled far off in Europe for the YFC Gat, hanged out at this past years SFC and YFC conferences, and managed to do it while being dirt poor. What I came to understand? Being broke sucks bad, but being broke and without God sucks so much more. More so doing anything without God being your right hand man can lead you to disaster. These days I try my best to keep myself as close to God as I can be, (FYI. you can never be too close to God.) so I went to retreats offered through local parishes, I spend time with the blessed sacrament, I served in my parish using my talents, and I allowed people to care for me rather then the adverse. Going back to all the traveling I do... for me it was an adventure that became an escape from everyday home life. Today, I see that most things your looking for are found right under your nose, so what you really need to do is face things head on and pray for the best. 2006 I came face to face with myself. Having done so I saw the good, the bad, the ugly, and then meet Mr. Ugly Cry (I do not like him so much). Like so many long standing leaders in the community I grew this extremely thick skin, so stong that most people could not read my emotions... but too strong that at most times I held it instead of releasing. I think one people nick named me the "tank" cause that was just how tough I built myself up, but the problem with that was when people do not see the real you hiding inside they come up with there own assumptions. A good analogy would be a famous super star, you see only what the tabloids show you. So, like most hard lessons learned... I learned again to show all of me, and not to hold back on the parts that I would rather not have people see (people can only help you if your willing to let them know whats wrong). Just let go and let God. This years favorite truth for me was: Dream big and do not let anyone tell you, you can not do something. Looking back into my childhood there was so many things that I wanted to do, but did not do because I let someone tell me I should do something else. Today after much deliberation I want my dreams to become reality... well cept for the seeing the world hahha did that, but really I dream to be a teacher and to be a great dad. Everyone holds a dream that needs to be nurtured, and no one has the right to say you can not do something, or this is not for you. Its your life, and only you can live it... and more importantly only you have the final say on what you do with it. To conclude this year held a lot of things for me, as it did with most people. I laughed, sang, ate, slept, drank, worked, prayed, traveled, played, worried, cried, and prayed some more. 2006 was a wonderful year and a wonderful journey, and 2007 will be a great one as well. Many people hold themes for their year to bring meaning into view, so for me 2007 will be: In the moment... which is just taking it one day at a time and not looking too far off. Eh em so thats it for me gals and gents, I hope to see you all this year and if not I hope the best for you all. Have a great 2007, and live it well. God Bless. |
